It was a calm weekend. I had a chance to do pretty much everything I wanted too. I am glad at last I am getting done with some of my personal plans. There is still one which I am still worried about: MATH.



I like the subject, I study, i pay attention, I get the notes and in fact I used to do very well in the test. But now, I lost whatever I had. My modjo, luck, etc. Call it however u want to cal it, but the thing is I lost it. Thesis is something I have already started working on even though I am still behind on time.



These slow pace days helped me to clear my mind. See things straight. I was able to read some stuff, watch the Almodovar’s movie, see my close friends for more than an hour without alcohol, talk about future with Sasso at hour spot, etc.



It felt good to get apart from those 30 people night plans for a while. Its not that I don’t like it, but when they happen I usually do not think at all, nor talk to my friends as much as I would like to.



The band, script and books are still some thing I haven’t erased from my TO DO list. My plan of getting away from girls for a while is still to be approved by my congress. The debate of if it is gonna work, or even if it is smart are of great discussion.



Avoiding whatever type of things with the opposite sex (and guys if bi) is it something smart, or is it just a synonymous of being blind and not confronting the reality? Plus I realised analysing the
“production, intellectual and psychological growth progress chart” that I am better when I am not worried about it.



Now, following you will se the difference in capabilities and behaviours with and without crushes, flings, “something’s”, etc.



T.L.T.M.B. (Theory of less-testosterone more-brain);



Things that happen with me with any of the following items:



Crushes, flings, flirts, sexual activities, etc.:

· Lost of self respect

· No Decision

· No Determinism

· Lost of Capability of saying NO or YES at drastic moments

· Laughing in a stupid manner

· Drinking

· Arriving at the right time (For a guy like me it is something huge)

· Lost of appetite

· Sweaty hands, etc…



SOLUTION TO ALL THE ABOVE:

“THE MENTALLY ASEXUAL STATE”.

FAQ (Frequently (stupid) asked questions):

What is it?

-It is a state in which my male organs only play a role in the urine disposal



What is it again?

-Not having a shake, fantasy, or though related to sexual content



Shake what?

-Don’t be an idiot. If u really don’t know, leave the computer right now and go talk to your parents, u are probably dangerously stupid.



When are u gonna apply it?

-Sometime around 2002-2003



Are u sure about it being a good idea?

-No, probably I won’t last. And in case I do, I am in big shit



What are your goals with this asshole?

-U shouldn’t use that tone mister… Well the following: Stop getting fucked by women, have no more tragedies in this field, get stable, diminish girl dependence, stop wasting time in personal activities other than for mental growth. Being less sensible to developing feelings for girls. Regardless the degree of relation u already have



Do u really expect us to believe u?

-No



How long is it gonna last?

-Theory: at least 3 weeks

-Practice: Less than a day



What inspired u to do this?

-No idea… But I have to stop acting as a jerk, pervert and be a melancholic sensible son of a bitch which is obsessed with relations.



Do you think we all care about your stuff and new idiotic “plans”?

-Yes.



Time of initiation: 23:57 PM (GMT –3) 17/11/2002

Time of end: ?